Compromising My Beliefs to Help My Child

Have you ever been tempted to do something that went against all your morals and values? Maybe that’s you right now. You feel like you are looking at the forbidden fruit and just want to grab it and run?

Well, I have felt that way and I wasn’t proud of myself. We needed medication for our son Kyle, he was very sick. He had a seizure disorder that was out of control and was slowly killing him. He also had severe autism.

Kyle had spent a year living under a blanket in his room, smearing poop floor to ceiling and also not being able to eat. We had to spoon feed him every day, or he was going to die. Kyle had already lost eighty pounds, and doctors had given up on him. He also pounded his walls from morning to evening and ran around our house throughout the night destroying our possessions.

Life had become a nightmare. Then out of thin air, a possible solution appeared:

My husband Vance and I were told of a street drug that might help alleviate some of his health problems and also control his seizures, but could also be prescribed if we could find the right doctor. We went to a few doctors, but they weren’t comfortable prescribing it or didn’t have the proper licence to write a prescription.


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Me and Kyle.


The drug was what Kyle might need to be able to recover, but we were told no. What does a parent do? This was possibly life or death for Kyle.

We could have gotten it illegally off the streets. It was tempting, I wanted my son to live, and I was tired of seeing him suffer every day. It was a typical drug to get off the streets. I could hear the little white lies slowly piling up in my mind.

Then that whisper: Cindy, will you trust me or do things your way?

Oh, the conviction and temptation that fought each other and went to battle to win the argument in my head. Isn’t it okay to do what’s right for my child, even if it meant breaking the law?

Finally, conviction won: God if you want Kyle to get that drug, then you can drop it on my doorstep without me breaking any laws, I will trust you. 

I walked away and left the prayer in God’s hands. Months later a parcel sat on my doorstep. Four bottles of the medication he needed, and it was prescribed legally by a doctor. You can read the whole story in my book, Beauty from Ashes

Kyle health and life has since made an incredible turnaround.

Have you been trying to get ahead in life and sometimes you just want to give up even trying? Every door that seems to open slams before you walk through it and you’re tempted to do what you think is right in your own eyes?

Some of you might presently be unemployed. Maybe you’re sick or disabled and used to have a job, but now you’re discouraged because you feel you’re not able to support your family. Or you live in a city with a high unemployment rate and jobs are few and far between. You may be in a tight spot and are tempted to do something you know is wrong, to get ahead.

That apple is starting to look tempting.

I can imagine how much harder it would be for you to resist going against your morals when you feel the bills are piling up higher than the few coins you have jingling in your pocket.

You may be desperate right now and need a glimmer of hope to keep going and to resist going against your beliefs in order to continue supporting your family financially or making a life-altering decision.

Many single moms have fallen into prostitution because they felt hopeless and didn’t know where to turn for money to feed their kids. It could happen to any of us. We could lose everything in a split second.


Me, Olivia, Janina and Aryanna


I had a single mother, who wondered where our next meal was going to come from. I watched my mother get on her knees many times and cry out to God to provide for us. Time and time again, we saw miracles repeatedly happen to put food on our table. Never once did we go without a meal.

The most memorable story is this one,

One evening we asked Mom what we were going to eat? She said she didn’t think we had any meat left and went to look. She opened the deep freezer and her mouth hung open as she gasped. All four of us kids rushed over and peered in, and to our shock and delight, it was filled to the brim with a side of beef.

We ate well that winter and never forgot that memorable day when we had more than we needed. My belief in a God who could feed us blossomed. My mother’s faith in a God who could provide for us overruled her fear of not being able to take care of us.

The creator of this universe, knew my needs before I was even born. He also knew how many hairs were on my head, whom I would marry, how many kids I would have and when I would die. God knows the same about you.

If you are that person in need, God knew you would read this post today. He wants to provide a solution for you that you can have peace about, instead of the one you will regret later. God wants you to put your trust and faith in him and his ability to take care of you and your family’s needs.

Pray today and ask God to give you his solution to your problem.

He may place it right on your doorstep 💗

What is the price of two sparrows—one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it. And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows. Matthew 10:29-31 NLT

Believing and hoping

Cindy Seaton💗








Author: cindyseaton69

I am the author of Beauty From Ashes: A Mother's Journey from Bitterness to Hope.

6 thoughts

  1. We used stories like these in school when I was teaching Religion and Ethics. I’m glad things worked out for you, but I would do anything to make my child’s life better whether it was illegal or not. To me, the health and well-being of my child takes priority over everything else. You raise some valid points.

  2. I love your posts, Cindy! I’m so glad that Kyle’s health has turned around!

    Thank you for sharing your journey. There are such great takeaways from every post. God has blessed you with an incredible journey to share, and the talent for writing and relating to us all. Your faith, wisdom, and compassion shines.

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