When Life is Out of Control God is Not.

Have you ever wished you had control over your life, and you could call the shots and make all the decisions?  I have been learning when life is out of control God is not.

My daughter-in-law Jazmin has had stage 4 adrenal cancer for four years. It’s been on her adrenal gland, her kidney, and also fills her lungs. Over a year ago, just before her wedding, she was in the hospital and doctors wanted to radiate her kidney which had a cancerous tumour on it and was causing severe pain.

But God had other plans.

Instead, Jazmin went to Arizona and had natural treatment there. But her tumours continued to grow, and Jazmin decided to stop the treatment to live her last days with her husband, my son, Eythan.

 

 

I was asking her one day if she regretted going to Arizona since her tumours hadn’t shrunk. “No,” she said. “I believe it was part of God’s plan. I became close with Gayle, and  I have also done all possible treatments other than radiation. I think God wants to show it is him alone who will heal me – if he gives me a miracle. ”

Wise words from a twenty-year-old young woman.

Gayle was a young girl her age who was also in treatment and had cancer. This precious young lady died a few months ago. Jazmin became close to Gayle’s family when she lived with them in Arizona, and now cherishes her friendship with them dearly.

 

 

Gayle had an impact on Jazmin’s life with her same beautiful outlook on loving God even though she was going through pain and slowly dying. She also understood what Jazmin was going through.

We knew God had a plan for each of these girls whether it was to stay on this earth until ago 90 or leave at a young age. But Gayle and Jazmin were at peace with trusting God with their lives.

Gayle’s passing was heartbreaking for Jazmin. She had had many friends die of cancer that she has met along this journey. Gayle’s funeral was beautiful with stories and scripture and pointing people to needing a Saviour.

Gayle had glorified God in life and death.

Charlene and Jason, who are Gayle’s parents,  have gone on to start a foundation for other children who are battling cancer and need financial assistance to receive treatment. #LoveGayle was created in Gayle’s memory. You can go to their Facebook group here to learn more or to donate: #LoveGayle

Jazmin was sad to lose a dear friend, and of course, it caused her to also realize she may be next. But slowly she came back to her usual self, and her thoughts returned of, “I am not in control: God is.”

We watched Jazmin lose more weight after that, and she seemed to be getting a little worse each week. Then a terrible few days where Jazmin, Eythan and her parents thought it was the end. Jazmin’s body was in a bad state.

But God was in control even though Jazmin’s health was out of control.

Jazmin made an amazing turnaround and since that weekend has been making improvements. She sent a text to our family chat group a few days ago, telling us she had gained 13 pounds in a little over a month. This is the heaviest she has been in a whole year.

We asked her how she was feeling? “Good!”

She put these photos on Instagram, and I could see her face has filled out. I could also see the look my son was giving her in the first photo above, and my heart warmed. He loves his wife so much.

I can’t wrap my mind around this whole situation. This isn’t supposed to be happening. Jazmin just spent a week at her family camp with her family, and cousins and had a fantastic visit with loved ones.

She is still here. For how long? We have no clue.

We are not in control: God is.

We thank God for the beautiful, sweet, and kind daughter-in-law he has given us and we hold her close to our hearts and will appreciate every extra day Jazmin has here…

Maybe even until she’s 90 years old.

There are many more posts about Jazmin. If you click on the menu under “Faith” you will see “Cancer” and will find many more posts about Jazmin. Here is another inspiring post about her: The Joys of Having Jazmin

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